Non-stop coffee dream. My sensory adventure.

It has been a while after my cup taster championship. I didn’t win the ticket to Berlin in a very unacceptable way, and could not really blame anything but admit I was not as good as I had expected to be. Going back to Europe has been my target of training for the competitions. I believe in “Signaling theory” from human capital theory in Economics so I attempted to prove out I could be the best all over the world, and it would be the reason of being sponsored for working VISA at a coffee-related company because I deserved it. However, it never went this easy. The grief of being unable to realize my goal had haunted me for a couple days. I almost refused to talk about it and even thought of quitting from this industry for good because I am not competitive enough to have my own position. Then I received a couple of thank-you-letters mentioning I was an expert to do a sensory job. The disappointment even deepened.

I seldom talked about my negative mentality. So yes, this won’t be too far away from it. Not in a sudden, I always know there are a lot of people supporting and helping me to get through all of this. I can feel it. Besides my profession, though I don’t possess talent, I still have passion and support from the people I love with me. I’m grateful all along. Still accepting some judge work requests and joining cupping events to seek my favorite and potential coffee currently, I know I'm still in love with it. Some told me it’s okay not to chase your dream at this moment, and he would encourage me to do any because I’m still growing stronger and will come back to it someday. But I cherish my finding after a detour of taking a master degree and a year life in The Netherlands. Some said it’s lucky for me to find out my passion at this age and I’ve begun earlier than most of the people in the industry. But I never think age is a problem for me and always compete with the skillful and experienced professionals. Overall, I could still pay my efforts into this industry not confined within a place and not give it up regardless of the formats. Therefore, I would conclude coffee may only be part of me, and cultivating other skills will make me indispensable. 

Though I feel like it is still not vivid for my coming jobs, I am way better and not afraid of anything unknown now. Just go for it! And like the category for this article, non-stop coffee dream, and it won't stop.